mr_raccoon

There is something I want to say, but i'm going to post it here instead of in one of the communities i'm watch or i'm part of. Over the past year i've been on LiveJournal I been through many trials, tribulations, happy moments and thats all inbetween. There is some things that is constantly and consistanly by people on paramoremusic. Where do you find all of your news? How come you are always first with the news? Why are you on here alot? Why are you so annoying? Why do you care what people think of you online? I feel that my livejournal is a more appropriate place to address these sort of questions than on paramoremusic. 

First, i'll get to how I find the stuff that I do online. Two words, search engines. I use Google News, the basic YouTube search, the search functions of Twitter (Basic and Advanced) and sometimes Bing. Yeah, it's not that exotic of a way to look for that kind of stuff, anybody can use those. But these methods take time. Sadly, I have enough time to do these things. It's something i'm going to get to in a second. Oh, my memory is pretty decent too. It makes searching for things easier knowing the when and where of something that might happen.

The reason why I have this much free time is because of my intense shyness and lack of confidence. Dealing with these issues has been a trying and embrassing problem i've been dealing with for years (something I had way before I had an LiveJournal). My shyness was so bad, I had extreme difficulty even communicating with other people online. It sucked only being able to lurk. I really don't know exactly where it all came from, but I know it started to affect me in middle school. Even now I still feel awkward to say anything, anywhere. It kinda explains why I said the awkward things I said on paramoremusic and on paramoreband when I first joined livejournal. I'm still embarassed of what I said then. While I still have issues regarding my shyness, I definilty have improved in the social skills area. I have an easier time looking people in the eyes, talking to clerks at a store and a few other things I did not think i'd be able to  years ago. But I still have ways to go in that area.

I wanted to clear this this up for you guys so you can sorta know where i've been coming from the past year.